I have been dealing with depression ever since I was 16. I have been teased by friends and classmates. I have been pushed to be something I am not. I have been told that I would not be loved or be in positive relationships . But having depression is still a struggle. I went undiagnosed. The depression kicked in after my grandmother died and after finding out that I was adopted. It got worse when I had to hold the family together after my grandmother died.
I came out as a lesbian at 20 and it wasn’t a happy come out with my mother . My mother and myself were arguing a lot . I was losing many friendships due to people and their actions . It had gotten to be unbearable . Around 21 , I tried to take my life . I went to the hospital and finally was diagnosed with major depression. I finally got the help needed and continued help for a year. I thought I felt better so I stopped getting it. I stop my medicine and everything. I went one year without my medicine and help. Unfortunately it did not go well ….. everything was harder to deal with .
I am 24 and still dealing with it. I am now doing counseling again. I say all this to say :
Stop being strong and cover up your mental illness to others
Stop holding on to toxic relationships
Speak up on your illness
But most of all